I couldn't remember how to get here

I am counting down the minutes until the possibility of a planning meeting. We have no lesson plan and we teach tomorrow. "Y'all are rising to the high expectations" as if these exepctations need to be met in our current timeline; that's why we student teach. At least I am becoming prepared for the unpaid labor and demands to meet unrealistic expectations. No one is talking about the toll of remote learning. No one is expressing gratitude for our children who have sacrificed their emotional well-being to do their part in curbing the spread of this virus. Now we want our children to go back into schools where they cannot sit next to their friends or move around the room. I am sitting at this fucking computer for hours on end every single day. I am wondering how can I possibly connect with these children and make them feel seen? "Y'all are rising to the high expectations" of burnout, exhaustion, distance. I am so tired.