Saturn's Return

Saturn's return is defined as when the planet Saturn returns to the same place it was in during your birth. It takes roughly 27-30 years for this loop. I'm roughly 28 1/2 and all of 2023 has felt like a lesson to be learned. The keys on this keyboard are so loud. I started this year in a freefall and landed on my face as the year went on. Falling down is an accident, but staying down is a choice. Somehow I feel like I'm so much older than I was when this year began. What a difference a year can truly make. I think in 2024 I'm just going to speak in metaphors. For some reason I was seriously dreading writing this post. I haven't written at all this year, but of course I need to keep the tradition alive. So much is being planned for this next year ahead and there is so much change to be welcomed. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be planning my wedding without my family in attendance, but here we are. My mother is getting remarried after reconnecting with an old flame just this year. My father doesn't know yet, and I feel like I'm lying to him every second that I don't tell him about this. Of course I know that it's not my place to tell, but I can only imagine his hurt when he finds out that we knew this whole time. Last February I got a tattoo of an ouroboros biting off its tail (truly a dream piece). I got it because I decided not to involve my family in my upcoming wedding or life honestly. The generational trauma on both sides ends with me. I can no longer bear crosses that were never mine to begin with. The biggest takeaways from this year have been: My presence is a blessing. My energy is expensive and exclusive. I'm stepping into the identity of my next level. xo