Goodbyes

There's only 26 minutes left to the year 2016. I breathe a sigh of relief as I type this because this year has been one of hell and triumph for me. My heart has been broken sixteen times over this year and somehow I survived it all. I am still standing, still breathing. This past year nearly broke me. I had to give up my dreams multiple times and watch as my future faded without me. 2016 almost killed me. There was no coping, no cover up, just raw every day experiences. My layers have been peeled back and now I can finally heal. Maybe in 2017 I will finally meet the face I have been dreaming of these past twelve months. But all I can hope for is that I am filled with love and light. This year I volunteered every piece of me, but now I can finally make sense of it all. Only 18 more minutes left of 2016 and I cannot wait to dive right into the next adventure. So fuck me up 2017, I have cute lingerie waiting for you.

xox

You were gone this year

My dearest Genevieve,

You have stolen my voice. This year my heart did not weigh heavy, but I fucking wish it did. At least I would be feeling something. The days are never easy missing you. I am so sorry I could not save you. Show me heaven is real.

Until next year.

Love you just a little too much

Hi my name is jess

I like to burn bridges while I'm crossing them

I'll try to make amends but really I'm just making sure you never hurt me again

You'll forgive me and I'll cut your lifeline in a snap

I'm the serpent underneath

Always have been